David Phan's Suicide Sparks Grief, Anger and Call for Justice

January 3, 2013

David at age seven, at Arches National Park. Courtesy of the Phan family.

After their son took his own life on November 29th, David
Phan’s family received two boxes. One box, sent by Bennion Junior High, was filled with generic pamphlets on
how to deal with suicide-related grief. The other box, given by current and former classmates, contained over 600 letters expressing their support and sorrow for the loss of their child. These letters,
according to family advocate Steven Ha, paint a portrait of a 14-year-old who,
despite being a victim of bullying himself, protected other victims of
bullying. At a December 20th briefing for local Asian American activists at the offices of the Refugee and Immigrant Center - Asian Association of Utah, Ha read out loud one
such letter from a former classmate: 

“Dear Phan family. Your son David is a
life saver. I’m going to miss him...This kid is amazing, has a great
personality...I’ve never met someone who could make me smile
when I’m deeply sad. He saved my sister’s life. She was going to kill herself,
but you [David] talked her out of it. If it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t have a
sister because of him, your son…I will not forget you [David]. I am letting
balloons go in the air to honor you. I’m so lucky to have met him. He always
made everyone smile...If someone was sad, he’d ask if they
need a hug. He was the hero of the school. If only I was still there, I
would’ve made sure this wouldn’t have happened.”

Tragically, it did. And now a Vietnamese
American family grieves for the loss of their son and seeks answers. The answers given by Granite School District spokesperson Ben Horsely in the immediate wake of David's suicide were not only insufficient, but struck the Phan family and supporters as defensive, insensitive, and even illegal. "David," said Horsely, faced “significant personal challenges on multiple
fronts” for which he supposedly received support for from a guidance counselor. And despite a report of bullying several years ago, “[David] never reported any further
bullying concerns and, on the contrary, reported that things were going well.” 

In response to these statements, the American Civil Liberties Union of Utah sent a letter to Granite School District Superintendant Martin W. Bates (made public in The Salt Lake Tribune), charging that Horsely "released confidential and protected information about David in violation of federal and state law, as well as making false and misleading statements and insinuations about David and his family." The letter continues, "Most troubling to David's parents and to us is that this pattern of wrongful behavior appears to be crafted to deflect questions about any potential responsibility from the District and to try to cast blame and suspicion on David and his family." The school and the school district have been asked to cease and desist from commenting further on David and his family.   

Clearly, things were not "going well" for David. And as more social media chatter and newspaper articles came out, it became clear that there was a crucial dimension to the bullying that caused much anxiety for Bennion and the Granite School District -- David was gay. 

As reported in The Salt Lake Tribune, while David's family lovingly supported him when he came out as gay, David shielded his parents from the "horror and negative experiences" he faced at Bennion. The desire to protect the parents from knowing that one is being bullied is quite common, according to Dr. Amanda Di Bartolomeo, clinical psychologist at George Mason University, who has worked with students in similar situations. But what's uncommon and inexcusable is that no one from Bennion alerted the Phan family about any "personal challenges," whether bullying or non-bullying related. 

Amanda Di Bartolomeo, clinical psychologist, George Mason University

Unquestionably, Bennion's chain of command failed to provide David the support he needed and wanted. It has also failed many of its other students, as indicated in many of the letters from current and former classmates addressed to the Phan family. So what, exactly, was the tipping point for David?  

As reported in The Salt Lake Tribune, on the day David committed suicide, Bennion alerted his mother, Phuong Tran, to let her know that her son had been suspended. When Tran rushed to the school, she was told by the principal that the reason for David's suspension was because they found a condom in his backpack. When asked why a condom should justify suspension, she was told that they would discuss it further the following Tuesday. 

Apparently, Bennion exists in a universe where the
search of an APIA student's body and personal property is warranted, and where a condom on campus is seen as a sign of criminal behavior rather than mature responsibility (not to mention that many public
schools freely give out condoms to students to encourage safe sex practices).
Whereas David’s Vietnamese family unconditionally embraced him when he came out as
gay, Bennion and Granite turned its back on David as he endured anti-gay
bullying -- and used the condom to punitively construct David's sexuality as a threat to the school. 

David, at age fourteen. Courtesy of the Phan family.

Many Asian Americans around the country turned to social media to express a range of responses -- shock, anger, sadness -- in response to David's suicide, the reports of anti-gay bullying, and the statements issued by Bennion Junior High and the Granite School Distrct. Pahole Sookkasikon, a PhD student in American Studies at the University of Hawaiʻi at Mānoa, and an organizer in the Thai American community, posted on his Facebook wall, "I am outraged for David Phan. His suicide could have been prevented...It may get better in the future, but what about it being better NOW."

Dennis Chin, member of the Gay Asian Pacific Islander Men of New York (GAPIMNY), posted on his Facebook wall, "Really triggering for me. Been thinking a lot about what the right response to this would look like. And how deep our wounds run, and persist, despite 'getting better.' And...how I even made it here alive..."     

Local groups in Utah, led by Ha, are already in the process of coordinating a response. Ha, a member of Utah’s small but growing
8,000 plus Vietnamese American community, as well as first vice-chairman of the Utah Vietnamese American Chamber of Commerce, is leading a coalition of local Asian
American and LGBT civil liberties organizations, namely the Organization of
Chinese Americans (OCA)
and the Utah Pride Center, to pursue a path of legislative changes through the Utah State Senate to combat bullying, as well as legal redress for the Phan family. To that end, according to Ha, the Phan family currently has several options to pursue multiple complaints and lawsuits. Complaints will be filed by the ACLU to the Civil Rights Division of the Department of Justice and the US Department of Education. The Phan family has also accepted pro-bono services from the Salt Lake City firm of Ford and Huff, who will assist in deciding if national law firms may be more suitable. A separate suit for defamation and wrongful death is being considered as well. Ha hopes that national API
organizations and individuals will support these legislative and legal efforts to prevent more tragedies like David's suicide from happening again.

However, Esther Kim, a queer Korean
American organizer living in Salt Lake City (and a product of the Granite
School District), would like to see other forms of mobilization that provide effective resources to local APIA and queer youth of color. As Kim wrote on a
Facebook thread about David’s death, “The API community in Utah is hella
heteronormative and it makes me uneasy as a queer API person to see a desire to
do this work in such a reactionary, savior-esque way. Queer folks of color
existed and were marginalized before David Phan and we will continue to exist
after the dust settles. This work requires a real commitment from allied
communities to get into it and not just folks who are looking to benefit off of
a tragedy.”

In a separate interview, Kim added, “It’s really frustrating to
live in Utah and then have connections to national organizations on the coasts.
But the practices of these national organizations are really space-specific.
They work at the places where they’re at because they have a specific kind of
infrastructure to support them. So when you try to apply those kinds of models
here, they don’t work. I know queer API people who are doing marriage equality
in San Francisco. I understand why they’re doing that, but for me, that is not
important in Utah.”

Emilio Manuel Camu, president of the
Asian American Student Association of the University of Utah, had this to say: “As a student that graduated from the Granite
School District, I’ve witnessed and been a victim of the neglect by the
administration whenever bullying was discussed...They continue to blame the victim and the family and try to uphold their status
as a wonderful and safe space for students to learn." Camu added, "If any place is a strict
believer of the Model Minority Myth of Asian Americans, it’s Utah...As long as they do well in class,
they're noticed, but that’s about it. I think it’s a little different in Utah because
a lot of the AA students I’ve worked with think they're the only AAs because we
have such a small community that they can’t reach out for support, because the 'support' they're given is deemed sufficient and their 'problem' is neglected."

For his work as president of the AASA, Camu said, "We've received plenty of complaints from counselors about
hosting our annual Asian American High School Conference because we talk about
issues of gender, sex, racism within the Asian American community. It’s not
something they feel comfortable discussing, and even some of the administrators
at the U [nickname for the University of Utah] have discouraged us from talking
about being AA [and] queer.”

Unsurprisingly, Utah school districts have a long pattern of aggressive discrimination of organized queer students. I remember in 1995 when the formation of a Gay-Straight
Alliance club at a high school I attended, East High School, prompted the Salt Lake City School District to shut down all
non-curricular clubs, a move that led the ACLU of Utah to file two lawsuits on behalf of students. It also prompted the formation of a different club at another high school I attended, West High School -- SAFE, or Students Against
Fags Everywhere. In October 2000, the Salt Lake City School District reinstated
all nonacademic clubs, including East's GSA, and the ACLU dropped its litigation.

Since then, despite its status as the headquarters of The
Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, Salt Lake City has surprised many by coming to be known as a
gay-friendly city, culminating in its selection by The Advocate as “the gayest
town in America” (based on an active gay nightlife and anti-discrimination
protections for gay and transgender people, adopted by the LDS Church in November
2009). That said, the Salt Lake metropolitan area has miles to go to address bullying of
youth, queer youth, queer youth of color, and APIA youth:

- According to a 2011 report by the Utah
Department of Health, Utah teens commit suicide more often than their peers in
other parts of the nation, with two youths treated for suicide attempts every
day in Utah;

- According to Valerie Larabee, executive
director of the Utah Pride Center, more than 70 percent of LGBT teens in Utah
recently reported being verbally or physically harassed for their sexual

- According to a 2005 national study by
the Gay, Lesbian and Straight Education Network (GLSEN), 44 percent of LGBT students of color reported experiencing verbal harassment due to both their
sexual orientation and race/ethnicity, while 13 percent of LGBT students of
color experience physical harassment due to both sexual orientation and race/ethnicity;

- And according to a recent report
released by AAPI Nexus, findings show that Asian American students are bullied
in U.S. schools much more than students belonging to any other racial group.

All together, these harrowing numbers
speak to the hostile climate that face queer APIA youth like David, a climate that Bennion Junior High and the Granite School District -- and many other schools and school districts across the country -- cannot, or will not, alleviate.

the Phan family grieves and Ha solidifies his coalition for legal
and policy redress, Cindy Huynh, a PhD student in the Department of Education, Culture & Society at the University of Utah, along
with Thanh-Tung Than-Trong, David’s cousin, Phan family spokesperson, and a PhD student as well in the same department, will speak with different Vietnamese
organizations and communities around the country to gather support. And individuals representing
various queer-specific APIA and non-queer specific APIA groups have expressed
interest in supporting the Phan family and various forms of mobilization. While the Phan family might never receive the answers they deserve from Bennion and Granite, hopefully these different efforts to address anti-gay bullying will produce some measure of solace and justice to the family for the loss of David.


Special thanks to Thanh-Tung Than-Trong for her help and for providing cherished photos of David. Our deepest condolences for your loss.


Terry K Park

California-born, Utah-raised, and New York-refined, Terry K. Park is a Provost Dissertation Fellow and PhD candidate in the Cultural Studies Graduate Group at the University of California, Davis. He has taught courses in Asian American media, history, theater and 1950s Cold War American culture at UC Davis, Hunter College, and San Quentin State Prison. As a former performance artist, his off-Broadway solo show, 38th Parallels, premiered in New York City with the Pan Asian Repertory Theater.



seems like there is more to the story. like condom getting him suspended? might want to hear more

Hi "Neaato,"

Thanks for your comment. There is much, much more to this story, which for various reasons, I couldn't cover. The Salt Lake Tribune and the Deseret News offer more information on David's suspension, which you can find online. Also, look for a possible update in the next couple of weeks that will shed more light on this tragedy.

My deepest condolences to the Pham family and to all who loved and treasured David.
This is not directly related, but this sad story reminds me of a blog post I wrote back in 2007 after the Virginia Tech shooting. Terry encouraged me to share the link here: http://chngthengteng.xanga.com/584543840/asian-americans-committing-suic...
This is tragic news and one all too familiar with me except for the unfortunate ending. The constant torment of being racially bullied growing up was such as negative memory for me growing up. I wasn't able stand up for myself, feeling alone and isolated. I wasn't able to turn to my parents who were prototypical immigrant Asian family who worked tremendous hours and struggled to find their own identity and fortune in the US as they couldn't help or understand. This frustration can lead to anger and depression. With all the recent news of gun violence and the attention to the potential reasons why the individuals commit these crimes, you see that they are often tormented, social outcasts, mocked, and what media would claim as loners. In those situations these unfortunate demented individuals chose to take it out on others, like in Columbine or Virginia Tech. In this case, David took it to himself. I am careful in not trying to imply that David is of the same mindless category of the above gun murderers, but their backgrounds and experience, including my own, echo each other. In the end, bullying needs to stop. The holier than though attitude of making one's race, creed, or culture over another's is not human nature. The US is a melting pot and tries to embrace it's patchwork of people, but I feel there is such divisiveness in appreciating others and trying to act socially cool causes one part of society to downtrod on the other part. Look also at the recent suicide of Private Danny Chen, committing suicide while serving his country in Afghanistan. Similar racial or sexual bullying, same ignorant bias because of stereotyping, and unfortunately the same result. Whether we feel angry or sad at this tragic event, to do nothing or ignore that there is an issue is wrong. We alone cannot solve this issue but the larger issue is educating the ignorant. It's unfortunate because turning a culture's opinion around is not an easy task.
" 70 percent of LGBT teens in Utah recently reported being verbally or physically harassed for their sexual orientation" Transgendered is not a sexual orientation. It is not a sexual condition at all; it is one of identity, and has medical components to it as well. The widespread use of "LGBT" as a common euphemism for "gay" is totally inappropriate.
My thoughts are with David and his family. As a child, I too was bullied by fellow students and even teachers, and school administrators ignored my parents' complaints. Thankfully, I learned to confront these attacks but still, the pain of these memories have stayed with me throughout adulthood. I currenty run an Asian employee network at work and will use this article as a discussion item to address this issue. Thank you Mr. Park for writing this heartbreaking but neccessary story on this topic.

Thank you Jeannie for taking the time to read it.  I hope it was/will be useful for your work and for your own healing process.

As a mother, my heart breaks for David and his family. And as a psychologist, I hear similar stories of bullying for any number of reasons all too often. If anything good comes out of this tragedy, hopefully it will be that Asian American communities will come together and be more open to speaking about issues traditionally considered to be taboo such as depression, suicide, sexuality, and childhood trauma. Articles such as yours can be a beginning in this dialogue - thank you for writing it!

Thank you for taking the time to read it and for your words.  We definitely need more Asian American psychologists like you doing good work.